Still Begining, But 32 LBS Down

I am still trying hard to get to a smaller shape. As I read past posts I am reminded of why I keep trying and how hard different paths can be.  I have tried exercise, only to be derailed by DS and then by injury (a broken toe ended the Jillian exercise tapes). I have tried specific food diets but have not always had the luxury of making that choice financially (DH has been laid off for over 1/2 of the last 2 years). This particular path began with a bit of hopelessness, desperation and even a bit of self disgust.  Negative as that sounds it was the thing that made me ask questions of a friend who has made good progress towards her ideal weight and to listen to what she said. I am not a person who EVER imagined myself at a Weight Watchers meeting. However she spoke of it helping and as I considered my reservations I forced myself to open my mind a bit and consider it. Why shouldn't I go to a meeting? I run support group meetings for women and believe passionately in their ability to help. Yes I can do this without paying for help, except I wasn't making it happen. So I finally just went that next Tuesday evening and in some ways it has changed my life.  I have hope that I can do this.  I have found my own particular issues in excess calories. Not being a soda drinker, a fast food run regular or a junk food junkie I never has those things which I thought could just be cut from a persons diet and just magically take off 5-40LBS. The point tracking has made me find my own personal issues, because lets face it, at 298 LBS I had them.  For me it has been about evaluation nutritional density and realizing that on a day with nutrient dense, super-food filled breakfast,I really need to eat a green salad lunch! This balance has been a shift that is largely responsible for having lost 32LBS so far! Yeah!! However I am still at a ridiculously heavy weight for my height and for being 2.6 years postpartum. My pants are too big again, though I am still wearing them with a belt and they are the same ones I have been wearing for 4+ years. Still, hope is coming here to roost more often and I am actually feeling a bit proud of my accomplishment. 250 will be a bigger moment of pride though and I may even let them mention my losses in the meetings when I get there. I will finally be entering into numbers that truly feel like I am making a difference. For now I am just taking it a day at a time.